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Old 11-06-2005, 12:04 PM   #1 (permalink)
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Should I tell her or not?

I met this wonderful woman about a month ago. She was the friend of a co-worker and seeing as how we were both single my co-work decided to set us up. We went out on our first date about two weeks ago and since then have been out on five more times. She is very easy to talk to and we both greatly enjoy eachothers company. We've spent 10+ hours just hanging out and talking multiple times. The last time I saw her was friday night/saturday morning. She came over after work and we walked around the local campus for about 4 hours just talking and getting to know eachother. When we got back to my place at 3 am, all my roommate were asleep or gone which is rare since on weekends they've been known to stay up for days on end. Before this we'd kissed goodnight on the last two dates, but nothing more. So, sitting in our empty living room we start to make-out and about 3 hours later we decide to stop making out and go to sleep since she has to work the next day. She is too tired to drive home and ends up sleeping with me in my bed, both fully clothed. When we both wake up four hours later we resume talking about our lives and that is when she tells me that part of the reason it was so awkward the night before was because he stepfather had molested her for a couple of years when she was younger. I'd known for talking to her earlier that she had a strong hatred for child molester, but didn't know why until she told me this.

Here's where the problem begins. When I was 14, I was babysitting my cousins and a neighbor girl and after they were all asleep, I molested the neighbor girl. There are many reason this happened, but it's something I deeply regret doing. I went through multiple years of counseling to help me figure out why it happend and how to move on. In the end I feel it has made me a way better person at the expense of that little girl. Very few people know about the incident, my parents, my sister and a few aunts and uncles. It is doubtful that she would ever hear about it, but I just feel wrong not telling her. On the other hand knowing what a strong hatred she has, I don't want to lose her over something that could stay buried in the past.

So my question is, should I tell her about what happened or should I just keep it buried and try to forget?

Thought I should add, I'm 24 and she's 25. She was molested when she was about 10 years old.

Last edited by Cerebral; 11-06-2005 at 12:10 PM.. Reason: additional information
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