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pan6467 · 10-20-2005, 05:30 AM

So, I'm battling my annual bronchitis and I go to the ER to get my Albuterol and antibiotics, like I have every year for the past 5.

The ER doc asks if I smoke?

Yes, 25+ years.

He asked when my last chest X-ray was?

3 years ago, I think.

He orders one.

And it shows swollen lymph nodes in my chest area. No sign of infection or pneumonia though.

He wanted me to get an MRI right then and there, but I am scared shitless and broke.....

He told me it was highly important to get them done ASAP. He said it could just be my make up or serious.

The scariest thing and most wicked and devious and as an addictions counselor I should know how to deal with this and do something about it.....

As he told me, all I could think of was getting a ciggie, I can't stop. Haven't slept all night scared to death. And here I am scared I have cancer and smoking away (and it's hard enough with brochitis)......

They say when you are physically unwell it affects your psyche and vice versa.... well this past year I have had a lot of mental stress and perhaps as I was mentally having a breaking point a few weeks ago, my physical body was adding to the stress and pushed me to the edge.

Anyway have no idea why I typed this...... guess to say don't start smoking....

peace.

10-20-2005, 05:30 AM	#1 (permalink)
pan6467 Lennonite Priest Location: Mansfield, Ohio USA	Swollen lymph nodes in the chest show on X-rays So, I'm battling my annual bronchitis and I go to the ER to get my Albuterol and antibiotics, like I have every year for the past 5. The ER doc asks if I smoke? Yes, 25+ years. He asked when my last chest X-ray was? 3 years ago, I think. He orders one. And it shows swollen lymph nodes in my chest area. No sign of infection or pneumonia though. He wanted me to get an MRI right then and there, but I am scared shitless and broke..... He told me it was highly important to get them done ASAP. He said it could just be my make up or serious. The scariest thing and most wicked and devious and as an addictions counselor I should know how to deal with this and do something about it..... As he told me, all I could think of was getting a ciggie, I can't stop. Haven't slept all night scared to death. And here I am scared I have cancer and smoking away (and it's hard enough with brochitis)...... They say when you are physically unwell it affects your psyche and vice versa.... well this past year I have had a lot of mental stress and perhaps as I was mentally having a breaking point a few weeks ago, my physical body was adding to the stress and pushed me to the edge. Anyway have no idea why I typed this...... guess to say don't start smoking.... peace. __________________ I just love people who use the excuse "I use/do this because I LOVE the feeling/joy/happiness it brings me" and expect you to be ok with that as you watch them destroy their life blindly following. My response is, "I like to put forks in an eletrical socket, just LOVE that feeling, can't ever get enough of it, so will you let me put this copper fork in that electric socket?"