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I was in the same situation as you in my last relationship. The mere thought of only having sex with one man for the rest of my life made me panic. So I cheated on him. Eventually I got out of the relationship and am now with Loverboy with whom I have an open relationship with. I get both love and my lust satisfied. It works perfectly for the both of us and I'm happier than I ever thought I could be.
I don't think it's fair to your wife that you cheat on her but I don't think it's fair that you should restrain your lust either. And since it doesn't sound like you're going to change then there's only two options really: continue or get out of the relationship and try finding a woman who's into open relationships.
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I have all the characteristics of a human being: blood, flesh, skin, hair; but not a single, clear, identifiable emotion, except for greed and disgust. Something horrible is happening inside of me and I don't know why. My nightly bloodlust has overflown into my days. I feel lethal, on the verge of frenzy.
I think my mask of sanity is about to slip.
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