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Originally Posted by reanna74
...What I'm looking for in this thread is: Have you struggled with your faith? What made you settled? How to demostrate that faith without following the blind sheep in a church? and one question that I think I will deal with for a long time - How could our friends and church family and most of all God, thurn their backs on us in such a way? It was too painful to want to put ourselves in a position to be hurt like that again. I'm almost afraid to go back to church for fear they will hook me with their flowery words and then next time a trial comes they will abandon me again...
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Reanna,
I've been in the exact position you've described a couple of times. A couple of times I've been out and out pissed at God. What has helped me personally, is remembering that other Christians who I would consider "good" and even Jesus Himself have been in this position. In His Passion especially, He experienced what I've heard called the "midnight of the soul", i.e., that dark place where you feel abandoned by all, including God: "My God, My God, why have You forsaken me??"
I have also experienced "good weather" Christians who seemingly evaporate when times get rough. Again, I look to Jesus, in this case, the example of His followers forsaking Him at His hour of need, especially Peter.
You say that you could count the people who supported you on "one hand", well focus on that hand. Even as Abraham bargained God down to not destroying Sodom for 10 good people, don't condemn all Christians because of those that fail. But also know that it is inevitable that you will run into those that cry "Lord, Lord" who are not what they say they are even as there are those who are true Christians without the proclimations. In those cases, you will "know them by their fruits".
In the end, it is you who has to find your answer in this hard time, but please know that there
are people who care and that God will not truly abandon you.
God Bless,
-lebell