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I didn't have sex until I was 24. At that point I was pretty 'adult' like already. I was older than most of my fellow students since I'd started college 2 years after highschool. I was already seen as older or more adult so in that sense it did not change me. Hubby and I LOVED sex the first time we had it and I think part of it was that we were both fully ready. We actually had sex 4 times the first day that we lost our virginity.
I did feel different but I believe that sensation was more psychological than anything else. I thought of sex differently. It wasn't this fairy tale anymore, it was reality and the reality was different than the fairy tale in a lot of ways. I guess you could say I didn't have this idealistic, innocent imagination of sex. It was real and it was good. Beyond that I don't believe I changed.
I have to consider the environment in which hubby and I lived at the time. I was going to a religious college that would have kicked me out had they found out. Heck my best friend and her boyfriend got campused for holding hands, sex would have meant severe discipline. So as a result neither one of us really wanted anyone to notice anything. There was no need to WANT to excude a change as a result of sexual encounter.
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