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It sucks, zensheep, but it's not an unfamiliar pattern. She was a girl dating a college man, now she's a college woman. The status has changed substantially.
I'm sure you trusted her deeply, and were completely blindsided by this, but in the end, she was a kid. When she officially entered adulthood and the college world, the choices suddenly become endless.
So many young women entered my school as freshman, initially turning down guys because they "have a boyfriend back home". To my knowledge, not a single one of those women stayed faithful. One married the boy back home, and didn't stay faithful.
Part of why this sucks for you is that you didn't get to do the whole college dating scene. At least you have a year left. What happened is a loss, and it sucks right now. It will continue to suck as long as you hope for reconciliation. It's not your fault, nor is it hers, she's doing what college kids do. Consider this romance over, and work on having some fun for yourself.
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I think the Apocalypse is happening all around us. We go on eating desserts and watching TV. I know I do. I wish we were more capable of sustained passion and sustained resistance. We should be screaming and what we do is gossip. -Lydia Millet
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