The only thing i can say is that, 99.9 percent of people come to a place eventually that you are at right now. I think it says allot how much thought you are putting into everything...
the advice that i can give and where i found all My answers was:
Quiet your mind, focus and look inside... all the answers you are looking for, only you can answer for yourself. Deep down, you know the right path for you.. so the best thing i can say is Trust Your Instincts!
Sweetpea