Hey there,Firstly, it takes allot of guts to bring this up on TFP here, so kudos!!
I will share my sister-in-law's issue with Social Anxiety. It is a very real and sometimes dibilitating disorder. Often, she will write everything she is going to say down before calling someone to say, make a dr. appointment or order something from a store. She has no friends and has panic attacks when out with people. She has a very understanding husband who helps out with things, but generally, she is a very jittery and nervous individual. She refuses to see a therapist or take medication, which i think would highly benefit her.
My question for you is Have you seen a therapist about this?
I think talking through the issues can really helping. If the therapist suggests medication, i would try it for a time, in conjuction with with weekly or bi-weekly therapy sessions. Therapy is a great way to work through issues and usually in a short period of time, you'll see a big difference.
Sweetpea