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Addictions are unbelievably difficult. I'm almost glad to hear that you have smoking to help get you over the hump. It won't get any easier for a while. Just remember, you can NEVER have another drink. That's tough to face but very true. One sip is all it takes. My friend quit for 15 years, then had just one at a bar one night. Then it was just two beers when out with friends. Then beer & wine only. Now, he's right back where he was. He's married to a beautiful girl but she won't watch the abuse for too much longer before she splits. The guy can chug a bottle of Jack Daniels in about 30 seconds. It's scary.
Another of my alcoholic friends just got his 4th DUI a week ago. He's going to jail. His two daughters, both beautiful kids, are aware that daddy's an idiot & cares more about the drinking than them. That's just the way addictions are. He's not really a bad guy but he has the monkey on his back & can't get it off. He recently got divorced from his drop-dead gorgeous wife & I can guarantee you he'll never find better. All from alcohol.
On the bright side, think of how your body is now healing itself. You won't wind up with a gin blossom nose, you'll be able to have a normal life which most alcoholics can't. Smoking sucks, but few people ever get divorced over using too much tobacco. Alcohol ruins your life. Find a new hobby, spend the extra money you now have from not drinking on something cool for yourself. Treat yourself regularly. Look forward to a bright future instead of one where you need to lie constantly to cover up your alcohol use. My Congratulations & use the forum regularly when you need to type out what you are going through. My addiction was always tobacco but I finally got off of those five years ago. I thought I was going to have to be locked up in a box for a year to finally quit, but I did it when my daughter was born.
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