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Amnesia620 · 08-26-2005, 07:36 PM

"I can't believe your being so stubborn!! Why won't you take one minute to just listen to me!" I cried, beginning to feel the raging flames of anger.
"I have been listening!!" my boyfriend, J.B., angrily pleaded in reply. "Why must I be so difficult?!? How about you? You always assume that I don't understand you!"
I paused, thoughtful.
"Me?!?" I yelled, "You're the one with your mind on someone or something else! You couldn't care less about me, what am I supposed to think!?"
I took a few steps around the couch, closer to him. He was in the living room, standing between the couch and the coffee table; he'd stood up to continue the fight after I stood up and went to walk into the kitchen. I looked at him and some of my anger subsided quickly. Maybe we were going about this the wrong way...[i]Was I being overbearing? Was I in the wrong??</I> I wondered.
I was soooo angry at him. He'd been a jerk to me for three days straight and I didn't know what the hell was up with him. On Monday, for most of the day, he seemed distracted. He seemed mostly lost in thought. I started to worry, which only increased when I called him that evening. The conversation was short, since he was pretty quiet...I began to get the vibe that he didn't want to be on the phone. I was so annoyed with him, but keeping as steady a voice as I could I quickly got off the phone with him so I could cry. On Tuesday, he seemed frustrated and irritated. Wednesday, which was today, had been worse. He had forgotten all about the dinner plans we had with two other couples, all good friends of ours.
I bit my lower lip. We had been doing so well together for over four months, I was fearful that he was having a change of heart. Could he have changed his mind, found someone else that he liked more? I panicked a little, thinking. She knew almost immediately that it was nonsense. No way could he like someone more...they had been doing really great together.
The pause in their argument seemed to calm him as well. He moved around the couch, closer to her. He looked at her and smiled softly. He leaned on the back of the couch, and began to speak, softly.
"Baby, I'm sorry that I have been out of sorts this past week. I'm sorry that I have snapped at you, that I've made you cry...I've been thinking about us a lot since about Saturday, we had such a great time this weekend, you and I have so much fun together, but -" He said, then stopped when I cut him off.
"But what? You want to 'see other people'? 'Just be friends'? Is that it???" I demanded.
J.B. looked at me.
"What?!" he almost laughed, "Where did that come from?"
I explained to him what I thought was the reason for his distance recently.
"I can't help it, J.B. It is the only reason I could come up with. If that's not it, then tell me. Talk to me. I want to know what's going on." I said, carefully.
"It couldn't be further from the truth," he began, "I've been trying to figure out how to tell you this...I love you."
It was the first time he said that. For a moment, it didn't register, then slowly it started to become clearer in my mind the meaning of his words.
I stared at him. Did I really hear him right? I wondered.
"What?" I said, dazed.
"I love you." he repeated, stepping forward to touch me.
I looked into his eyes. It was true. He didn't want to be without me; there wasn't anyone else. He loves me. He doesn't dislike me...he loves me!! I thought, suddenly nervous and excited.
"I love you, too, J.B." I said, looking him in the eye.
Sometimes, it's a good thing to be wrong...sometimes.

08-26-2005, 07:36 PM	#15 (permalink)
Amnesia620 Forget me not... Location: See that dot on the map? I don't live there.	"I can't believe your being so stubborn!! Why won't you take one minute to just listen to me!" I cried, beginning to feel the raging flames of anger. "I have been listening!!" my boyfriend, J.B., angrily pleaded in reply. "Why must I be so difficult?!? How about you? You always assume that I don't understand you!" I paused, thoughtful. "Me?!?" I yelled, "You're the one with your mind on someone or something else! You couldn't care less about me, what am I supposed to think!?" I took a few steps around the couch, closer to him. He was in the living room, standing between the couch and the coffee table; he'd stood up to continue the fight after I stood up and went to walk into the kitchen. I looked at him and some of my anger subsided quickly. Maybe we were going about this the wrong way...[i]Was I being overbearing? Was I in the wrong??</I> I wondered. I was soooo angry at him. He'd been a jerk to me for three days straight and I didn't know what the hell was up with him. On Monday, for most of the day, he seemed distracted. He seemed mostly lost in thought. I started to worry, which only increased when I called him that evening. The conversation was short, since he was pretty quiet...I began to get the vibe that he didn't want to be on the phone. I was so annoyed with him, but keeping as steady a voice as I could I quickly got off the phone with him so I could cry. On Tuesday, he seemed frustrated and irritated. Wednesday, which was today, had been worse. He had forgotten all about the dinner plans we had with two other couples, all good friends of ours. I bit my lower lip. We had been doing so well together for over four months, I was fearful that he was having a change of heart. Could he have changed his mind, found someone else that he liked more? I panicked a little, thinking. She knew almost immediately that it was nonsense. No way could he like someone more...they had been doing really great together. The pause in their argument seemed to calm him as well. He moved around the couch, closer to her. He looked at her and smiled softly. He leaned on the back of the couch, and began to speak, softly. "Baby, I'm sorry that I have been out of sorts this past week. I'm sorry that I have snapped at you, that I've made you cry...I've been thinking about us a lot since about Saturday, we had such a great time this weekend, you and I have so much fun together, but -" He said, then stopped when I cut him off. "But what? You want to 'see other people'? 'Just be friends'? Is that it???" I demanded. J.B. looked at me. "What?!" he almost laughed, "Where did that come from?" I explained to him what I thought was the reason for his distance recently. "I can't help it, J.B. It is the only reason I could come up with. If that's not it, then tell me. Talk to me. I want to know what's going on." I said, carefully. "It couldn't be further from the truth," he began, "I've been trying to figure out how to tell you this...I love you." It was the first time he said that. For a moment, it didn't register, then slowly it started to become clearer in my mind the meaning of his words. I stared at him. Did I really hear him right? I wondered. "What?" I said, dazed. "I love you." he repeated, stepping forward to touch me. I looked into his eyes. It was true. He didn't want to be without me; there wasn't anyone else. He loves me. He doesn't dislike me...he loves me!! I thought, suddenly nervous and excited. "I love you, too, J.B." I said, looking him in the eye. Sometimes, it's a good thing to be wrong...sometimes. __________________ For example, I find that a lot of college girls are barbie doll carbon copies with few differences...Sadly, they're dumb, ditzy, immature, snotty, fake, or they are the gravitational center to orbiting drama. - Amnesia620 Last edited by Amnesia620; 08-27-2005 at 11:45 AM.. Reason: Quotations and some junk.