Its been two weeks since my last drink. I feel like shit. Sometimes I feel ok, I forget about it, but other times I don't know what to do with myself. Its a bad feeling. I feel like I wanna jump out of my skin. Its horrible. I never felt like this before.
My pot smoking has gone down. I seem to get panic attacks from just one hit. So reality has a grip on me. I'm sober all the time now. Its very different. I must confess, I don't like it.
I contacted AA. I don't wanna go because I fear public speaking, but the crave for booze isn't getting better so maybe I'll confront my fear.
My smoking has increased. Two packs a day. It helps. The anxiety is killing me. I hope it goes away. I need a drink really, really, bad.
So, its friday night, I'm by myself, not drinking, completely sober, smoking like a chimney, thinking, posting, and hating it.