Shades

Long story short, I'm going to cut and paste from the journal. I'm too lazy to retype it, and anyway can't think of anything better to say. Here it is in a nutshell. Actually, here it is in text on a screen, but I'm sure we all understand. I changed her name.

What has me all pissed off at the moment is Annie. I haven't seen her in a week, barring a few terse moments for graduation. By the time the surgery is over, it will have been two weeks. By the time i get back to Austin, it will have been three weeks. So I say to myself, ask Annie to come visit for a day or two. I'm sure she'll come, I bet she misses me as much as I miss her. And like every other assumption I've made in my long and glorious life, I was wrong. She won't come. Not even if she gets her schedule fixed well before when I will be coming back. She has a 6 day window, between the Tuesday she gets to Austin and when I return to Austin. It won't take that long to get a schedlule fix. I've done this numerous times in more difficult settings- taking a grad course as an undergrad, taking an undergrad course in another college as a grad student, and getting my entire schedule replaced one fine semester when it all vanished two days before the semester started. And yet, when it was Christmas break, and she asked me to come up, I ditched friends and family to see her. I was only too happy to do so, and I would do so again. But I don't rate leaving an empty apartment. Great. At least now I have a better idea where I stand. I don't care what she meant, at this particular moment, I only know that I feel like I'm out of site, out of mind. The exact quote was "I guess I don't feel the same urgency you do." I can't really add anything to that.

So anyway, my question is, what's my next move? Just be pissed about it and let it go away? Have it out with her? Or what? I want to add that I am in the same major as her in college, so I wasn't comparing apples to oranges.