haha wow guys thanks for the comments.
tiltedbc -- lol you can be as mean as you want to be bro. I'm not one of those people who is opposed to things I don't want to hear, so I'll give you fair crack at this.
What REALLY ended up going down is after I told her I would meet her friend and see what happens--I didn't. I knew that was rotten bullshit to the core, I was just not admitting it openly. I knew it though and never had any intention of meeting her. When I looked at the facts, I saw the same things you guys did, and I don't need that bullshit, so see ya honey.
So this shit all happened a month ago. I still work out at the gym 3-4 times a week and see her there all the time, and at first she would come up and say hi and try to start conversations with me, and eventually I just got so tired of trying to play the "I still want to have a cursory conversation" with you game that I just started giving her one word, you can leave me alone now kind of answers.
Couple loose ends I'd like to tie up. One thing I talked to this chick about when I was stoned one night was the little tiny spandex shorts and sports bra she would wear when she worked out, which left nothing to the imagination. I was like, you must love doing that because every guy in that gym can't stop stealing looks at you. She said no...she never thought of it that way. Her father has told her that she and her sister being born sucked the life out of him and that he has been unhappy all his life because of them. She was an 'ugly duckling' who was teased and made fun of until she was 14 years old and hit high school and suddenly puberty hit and suddenly worked it's magic. So she said her reasons for not thinking about herself like that is because she still feels negative about herself so she doesn't think she has anything worth 'flaunting'. Of course, that is to be taken with a grain of salt, but I think if you met her you'd understand she's a bit crazy, but pretty genuine. So, I don't really think I was a notch in the belt, but if I was, she was just as much one in mine. Keep in mind I've been dumping my personal thoughts on here--to this girl's knowledge I never had anything more than a passing interest in her.
Further more, I'm not a nice guy playing a game out of a book. I have to admit I definitely got way too mushy when I first met this girl, because she was so candid and open about everything, but I never resorted to calling her all the time or text messaging her, or doing anything that would imply that I was her bitch. I hung out with her 4 timesover 2 weeks and had sex with her once, almost twice. That makes me a toy?
And not to be arrogant, but I'm good looking enough for anybody. There's people who are better looking than me, and there always will be--but that's like saying that all the other girls who didn't win a miss america pageant are ugly. Being good looking is only half the battle if your personality sucks. And I'm spontaneous, crazy, and confident, and a little sensitive, which is pretty much everything they want. I'm a realistic person and I know my limits, but that's why I work out 4 times a week and dress well and stayed groomed. It's a package deal. Either you know you're sexy or you don't, and no offense but someone who I've never chilled with on an internet forum doesn't really know that much about me. But that's the nature of this shit so you have to act on what you have available, can't fault you that.
So to FURTHER update you guys on this shit, I had not had an update for a month. Like I said I had not been talking to her much and it was below even the cursory chit chat, I didn't even really feel like speaking to her. And so then I go to the gym yesterday, during a dead time at like 1pm (before i go in for work at 3pm) and I end up seeing her and she comes over and chats with me for like 15 minutes. There was no one else around, it was pretty dead, I don't know why I didn't just cut her off and send her out, but I didn't. Well, okay, I know why I didn't do that. It's because I want to see if *I* can string her along at all. Get her re-interested maybe after not talking to her for a month. So she invited me to go to Brooklyn this weekend, barhopping with her and some of her girlfriends, including the friend she wants me to meet. I'm going to Boston this weekend to party with some of my boys and it's going to be a sick time, so I told HER, if you want, give me a call and we can party in Boston.
Now, just so you know, this is not my only pussy possibility here. I was over at a buddy's house smoking a blunt when some chicks came by, two of whom I knew from high school and hadn't seen in a while. I had seen them earlier in the summer but not recently--but it's not like I haven't seen them since i graduated, know what I mean? We were talking about how crappy hartford CT is for bars and one of them invited me to go out with them to a bar in new haven CT sometime. She gave me her number and her screen name. Girl is cute, not hot, but her personality is fuckin fiery and that definitely makes her sex appeal shoot up. She told me when she and her friends get drunk I better watch out, and I said I wasn't worried about being able to handle them =p
And on top of this, like I said, I'm going to boston this weekend, and I just picked up a gram (10 doses) of MDMA (ecstasy in pure uncut kick ass form) for this weekend. My buddy who I am going up to see is a roommate in my off campus house for next year, he's rich with Iranian oil money from daddy, so we are going to hit up some sick parties and then bring some ladies back for the VIP at his house afterwards.
So really, what happens with this chick is inconsequential. I'm not her toy because I have no problem just walking away from her, and I've never, ever, tried to chase her or act like I wanted to pursue a relationship with her.
Good updates to follow this weekend, if I survive it
P.S.
I am not a player in the R. Kelly / P.Diddy sense of the word where I walk into a club iced out with bling bling and can just throw my dick at whoever I feel like. I am a player in this little dating game thing though. If you played too, you would understand the necessity to be able to walk away from a given situation at any time without any hard feelings, knowing that, people are people, and you can't base your outcome with one girl on how your outcome will be with the next one. People are very different and usually weird once you get to know them, so as any guy will tell you, rejection happens (sometimes a lot), but it's all a matter of shaking it off, getting back up, and getting back on the horse and occassionally scoring a win. That's why it's a fun game, after all =) You can't win all the time but when you do it's a treat. The fact that I can go out to party with a carefree, see what happens attitude, knowing it could be anything, and that no matter what it is I'll roll with the circumstances and do what I can...that's what it's about man. That's why I love the weekends...I never know what possibility might present itself.