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Originally Posted by pocon1
My mom's death has not hit me very hard. It has mostly made me sad. I think it is because I have known she was going to die, so I had already spent some emotion before she died. I have mostly been sad and quiet the past week, but not overly so.
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Yes.
I think it's because you are exhausted in every sense of the word. So much to handle, so much to cope with. It's a long and protracted way to die. Not an easy death at all, if there is such a thing.
A couple of weeks after the fact, it hits you like a hammer. All the hoopla has gone, the friends and family are back to their routine, and you are left in the quietest moments by yourself with nothing but your thoughts. The memories flood your thoughts, the images of the past, the nightly dreams. The silence is the worst because inside your head, your thoughts are screaming.
All this and no-one around you even knows.