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Part of me thinks I have an issue, but then part of me can't be for certain. I think I'd be more certain if I had nude photos of her (my girlfriend). But part of me thinks she wouldn't be able to convey the confidence she has in person through the camera. I think that's one of the appeals of porn; the women portrayed convey the idea of sexual confidence. As they are portrayed, they know how they want it and when. From a personal standpoint, I have to say I find that attractive.
Masturbation to me is such a mechanical thing, just get off and make it go away so you can go about your day without being bothered. That in and of itself makes me partially disregard having an "addiction", but then at the same time I'm reminded of the fact that I'm getting off to the sight of other women, which even in my mind feels somehow wrong.
The true enjoyment comes with my girlfriend. While we don't have sex, there's still plenty of fun to be had for all. Of course, though, there are times where we can't, for one reason or another, and thus begins the porn search. She admits to doing so as well (masturbating, not looking up porn or erotic stories), which I totally understand, but she, "thinks about me", and here I am looking at other women...makes a man feel a little dirty, no?
Part of me wonders if half of the issues these men are having with their girlfriends would be settled if they would just communicate the kind of characteristics they enjoy. If they can't find that, perhaps they should move on? If my girlfriend could convey the confidence she has when we're together on camera, I don't think I'd have any need for porn. Speaking of which...*goes to research digital camera prices and remind self to talk w/ gf...*..
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