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Old 07-12-2005, 12:05 PM   #27 (permalink)
Hash_Browns
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I am currently preggers with my third child...6 weeks to go! I have spent the last 3 months wanting out of my body sooo badly for anight out on the town. I want to have a couple drinks and relax and hang out with friends (and if it were even possible, let it all hang out with friends as I am in love with being naked atm!). I consider this rebelious because I am pregnant and therefore restricted and it's not normal behavior for me during pregnancy. Iam usually busy being caught up with the miracle of myself growing a little life inside of me to remember there is a seperate me in there somewhere.

The really out of the ordinary things that have come up during this time is wanting to dye my hair some silly color and put blonde streaks in it. Getting a Madonna or Medusa (haven't decided which side would be best, but hubby hates the idea anyways).

But being a Mom has made these kinds of things really difficult because of the preconceptions other people have about what a mom should look like. Add on top of that the fact that I am 26 (july 19th) and have 3 kids, it would in my opinion give more people reasons to think I couldn't possibly be a good mom being so young and looking like such a rebel. I know it's easy for me to say fuck what other people think, but it's harder for me to stand out when it comes to my kids and not wanting them to have to deal with my choices and get comments or other things shoved in thier faces (because my daughter is 5 and starts 1st grade in the fall, I fear people at school saying these kinds of things openly as this area is very conservative).

In short, I feel rebelious ALL the time, and want to act out in MANY different ways. Act out about being a human being first, then a Mom (please don't take offense, it's not differnent the stating if Mom ain't happy, Nobodies Happy, and sometimes I like to step out of my Mommy title and be just me for a bit to get there). I want to act out against what a 'normal' relationship should be and show people that you can be happy with your SO while you're both enjoying the company of other adults together and there's nothing wrong with it. I want to be able to wear halter tops without a bra and not have to give a shit that it's 'not normal'...WHO SAYS? It's a halter, it holds its own...duh!

This was a fun thread and I enjoyed getting some of that out! Thanks!
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