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UPDATE FOR KRAMUS:: the only one still reading this!!!
Well as with this relationship, it always seems to have a plot twist. So last night my parents are gone on a weekend getaway, im chilling at home smoking weed, and guess who calls me. This girl. She wanted to come chill. I didn't expect it or anything--I had mentioned my sky diving idea to her and she was like yeah yeah i want to but it's expensive bla bla bla...so my prior plan wasn't quite happening yet. Can't force it if it's not there. So anyways last night she comes over and we hang out chill smoke talk a lot. Talked a lot about our relationship actually...and she tells me she is fucking the abercrombie poster boy from the gym! Regularly! Supposedly they're , 'in the same place', because they both JUST got out of long term relationships and say they don't want something long term serious...yet I get her naked last night and then she wouldn't have sex because she'd feel guilty..like she was cheating on him. So I was like well you can't do that to me, I'm not going to be your cock in a bottle. Not happening. I've been prepared this whole time to walk my separate way and not talk to you, because yeah it would suck, but whatever we have is so fragile I can't put any kind of investment into it, because it could just poof, and I have to walk away from that.
So what does she tell me then? That I should hang out with her best friend Leah. She's like the minute I saw you I thought you would be good for her before myself...
So I was kind of like..hmm...but that makes me look less to you, because I'm just flip flopping to your friend. But on the other hand, you're going to lose me from your life completely otherwise, because I'm not sticking around. I told her you're lying to yourself if you think you're single but you feel guilty being with other guys. You're already back in a relationship. "well he's going back to college in the fall so then it'll end" -- okay, sure. We'll see.
--On a side rant--, I was annoyed at first that this other guy would get chosen over me. Because I think I'm better. So i asked her why him, and she was basically like a) we just got over long term relationships and b) I can't figure him out. He's mysterious. Not to mention he probably is a little better looking than me. Not by much but in all honesty he could be on an abercrombie poster. So basically this girl likes that complex...he plays subtle games basically, can't talk about anything like we can. So that demystifies me, I'm all figured out. Boring =P To her anyways, some people want that and some don't, I don't, so maybe when I find someone who doesn't want that kind of bullshit, i'll be satisfied. Maybe it'll be her friend, I dunno whatever, but I'll have to go back into thinking of what angles to play and what to say right all the time, and not be myself, because I won't know her.
But according to this girl I'm with her friend is gorgeous, but then she's hyping her up so I don't know. I guess I'll go out with her once and see how things go. Can't hurt.
So random, but whatever, gotta roll with it.
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