Originally Posted by kangaeru

IC3,

You are reading what I'm writing but you are not hearing what I am saying.



Look at your thought process. Nowhere in there do you ask YOURSELF which you want to wear more. You look to how other people will perceive you to decide whether to wear white or black, do you see how this? Black and white are opposites and to say I'm going to wear one or the other based on other people say symbolizes something I think. You need to be asking yourself this from a place of inner calm and peace, where you don't question yourself. If you want to use the quote, you should try to practice what you preach. It doesn't matter what the fuck anybody thinks of how you dress before you even walk out of your house, what matters is that you think you look good. People will treat you like it.

You've got to rationalize what I'm saying and take a hard look, because it goes against your instincts. But it's never too late to break out of a mold. Okay sorry little side story for you, I know where you're coming from.

When I was in high school I moved half way through my freshmen year, i was heavily into MMO's and FPS games so I wasn't that social at the time, so I made like no friends. I ended up gaming my whole life away ages 11-18. I actually got to be one of the top 3 online/ LAN players in unreal tournament from about 2001-2002. I had no friends though, I went through depression, did akward high school shit, but I learned from it. I learned from gaming, because I saw how good I could be at something if I put everything into it. If you never admit failure, you can never fail at naything. It's hard to live but it's true. You've got to have that deep rooted belief that you could do anything you might ever have to do. And you know you will do it your best but whatever happens, shit, what can ya do. Just gotta go with the flow. We live, we die. When I'm 60 years old looking back on my life, I want to be proud of what I accomplished, and I don't want to feel like I could have done something but I wimped out. So I take the plunge and do it.

I guess that's my own mental gospel on display for you. Take this as you will, I can't force you to feel this way, you have to look at it logically and realize a different strategy could totally change the game of life for you. You might want to read my signature.