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kangaeru · 06-17-2005, 01:24 PM

Hey guys,

Sorry for not updating you for a while. No, I was not killed by the psycho ex-boyfriend--yet =P

Hmm so I guess some of you want to know...what DID happen? =) Well that night I ended up going to her house, getting high, started watching a movie and eating some ice cream, typical stoner shit, and the 'what do we really want to do' atmosphere was completely palpable...so I ask her if she wants a back rub. Corny, yes, overused--maybe, but it worked. From there it was just a matter of going from massage to teasing her and pushing some buttons and I had her ready to go.

So we go to her room and she starts talking about how she really wants to be with me but she feels guilty with having just broken up with her boyfriend. Little more info on that...things hadn't been good for a while with them, but his appendix burst, he had no family, dad gone, mom in jail, no insurance or income, so he moved into her house. Things weren't great at that point but she felt obligated to take care of him. So anyways all his clothes are still in her room...she was saying she felt guilty. I can see this, as she was in an intense physical relationship with somebody for so long and now all of a sudden she's getting with someone different, only a week after they broke up.Well, we ended up talking a lot, fooling around some (shirts off, dry humping...pretty PG), I go home at like 5:20 am.

So last night she came over and there were limits at first...don't take her pants off. Well I was 'petting' her and teased the hell out of her and got her real horny and good to go and she told me she was worried about getting involved in something, especially after just getting single after being with her crazy boyfriend. I told her look...first off I'm no barfly, we relate on a lot of levels and have talked about a lot of shit even though we've only just met. We're just very open / honest / open minded. I also told her...I realize she's only just finally become single again, and I don't want to pin her down. But while I have her attention, I don't want to have any regrets, and I'm willing to give to her whatever she wants from me. I realise at any moment she could just lose interest, find somebody else, and there would be nothing I could do and I want to show her everything I've got to give her....so basically I offered to let her be a fuck buddy if she wanted, and I wouldn't hold her down with a relationship. Honestly I was stupid for ever worrying that she was too 'weird' for me, she's really opened my eyes to the fact that the ideal person I was always looking for but thought didn't exist, actually does. Where I don't feel like I have to play any kind of games for her to stay with me.

So after all this talking, came the sex. Clawing, biting, nail digging, body shaking, animal sex. It was awesome...amazing passionate sex. Like 10 different positions, got her to come twice before I let myself finish. I wanted to show her what I had and I think I made a pretty good impression. I had to go to work in the morning and I got in an hour late but it was well worth it. It was her day off so she went home...and I'm callin her when I get out of work.

So now I guess the dilemma is this...we're definitely not fuck buddy material. We're already at a much deeper level emotionally than that. But she wants to see what it's like being single...or so she says. I feel like i've found my other half, but I don't want to hold her down and pull her into a relationship she doesn't want to be in.

So, I'm going to see how things go. We'll keep doin whatever it is we're gonna feel like doin, and I'll leave it up to her if she wants to try to graze greener pastures. I know she won't find any, but its perogative if she wants to wander.

So that's that for now, I'm basically completely off of my original post. Girl isn't weird at all...she's spontaneous and crazy and the sexiest thing I've ever seen

Haha oh man I'm beginning to sound whipped...kinda a fun feeling.

Anyways feel free to keep giving me advice, I'll keep ya'll updated.

06-17-2005, 01:24 PM	#26 (permalink)
kangaeru Crazy Location: on the road to where I want to be...	Hey guys, Sorry for not updating you for a while. No, I was not killed by the psycho ex-boyfriend--yet =P Hmm so I guess some of you want to know...what DID happen? =) Well that night I ended up going to her house, getting high, started watching a movie and eating some ice cream, typical stoner shit, and the 'what do we really want to do' atmosphere was completely palpable...so I ask her if she wants a back rub. Corny, yes, overused--maybe, but it worked. From there it was just a matter of going from massage to teasing her and pushing some buttons and I had her ready to go. So we go to her room and she starts talking about how she really wants to be with me but she feels guilty with having just broken up with her boyfriend. Little more info on that...things hadn't been good for a while with them, but his appendix burst, he had no family, dad gone, mom in jail, no insurance or income, so he moved into her house. Things weren't great at that point but she felt obligated to take care of him. So anyways all his clothes are still in her room...she was saying she felt guilty. I can see this, as she was in an intense physical relationship with somebody for so long and now all of a sudden she's getting with someone different, only a week after they broke up.Well, we ended up talking a lot, fooling around some (shirts off, dry humping...pretty PG), I go home at like 5:20 am. So last night she came over and there were limits at first...don't take her pants off. Well I was 'petting' her and teased the hell out of her and got her real horny and good to go and she told me she was worried about getting involved in something, especially after just getting single after being with her crazy boyfriend. I told her look...first off I'm no barfly, we relate on a lot of levels and have talked about a lot of shit even though we've only just met. We're just very open / honest / open minded. I also told her...I realize she's only just finally become single again, and I don't want to pin her down. But while I have her attention, I don't want to have any regrets, and I'm willing to give to her whatever she wants from me. I realise at any moment she could just lose interest, find somebody else, and there would be nothing I could do and I want to show her everything I've got to give her....so basically I offered to let her be a fuck buddy if she wanted, and I wouldn't hold her down with a relationship. Honestly I was stupid for ever worrying that she was too 'weird' for me, she's really opened my eyes to the fact that the ideal person I was always looking for but thought didn't exist, actually does. Where I don't feel like I have to play any kind of games for her to stay with me. So after all this talking, came the sex. Clawing, biting, nail digging, body shaking, animal sex. It was awesome...amazing passionate sex. Like 10 different positions, got her to come twice before I let myself finish. I wanted to show her what I had and I think I made a pretty good impression. I had to go to work in the morning and I got in an hour late but it was well worth it. It was her day off so she went home...and I'm callin her when I get out of work. So now I guess the dilemma is this...we're definitely not fuck buddy material. We're already at a much deeper level emotionally than that. But she wants to see what it's like being single...or so she says. I feel like i've found my other half, but I don't want to hold her down and pull her into a relationship she doesn't want to be in. So, I'm going to see how things go. We'll keep doin whatever it is we're gonna feel like doin, and I'll leave it up to her if she wants to try to graze greener pastures. I know she won't find any, but its perogative if she wants to wander. So that's that for now, I'm basically completely off of my original post. Girl isn't weird at all...she's spontaneous and crazy and the sexiest thing I've ever seen Haha oh man I'm beginning to sound whipped...kinda a fun feeling. Anyways feel free to keep giving me advice, I'll keep ya'll updated.