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I sabotaged friendships and relationships, but it was mainly due to my own lack of self-esteem. I always seemed to think that once they got to know me properly, there would be nothing they would like about me, so to not go through that I would always stay away from people. It's something I still fight today, because logically I know I'm a nice and worthy person. It's the emotional responses and feelings that are stronger sometimes.
So for me, it's not that I don't trust someone elses motives, I don't trust my worth. I can handle being hurt by someone else, but I have a harder time handling my unworthiness issues.
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To those who wander but who are not lost...
~ Knowledge is not something you acquire, it is something you open yourself to.
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