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Ugh
This thread brings back some memories. My first love had an abusive past as well. I lost my virginity to her, we stayed together for 5 years, got engaged and she broke it off 3 months before the wedding.
Some time after our “honey moon” period she began to open up about her past. Her step grandfather had repeatedly molested her while she was growing up. She began to feel real uncomfortable about sex in general. I’m a very cuddly person. I like making out, I like touching, I like being touched. Every time I wanted to just be close she started taking it as a sexual advance on my part. It really confused the hell out of me for a long time. I felt rejected for a long time. I don’t know if that killed our relationship or not. She ended up sleeping with 2 of my friends while we were together (which I didn’t find out about till recently, which was like being dumped all over again emotionally speaking).
I don’t know, its been 2 years and I’m pretty much over all the pain. She just got married (this past weekend actually) and sent me a “final good by email” yesterday
I’m in the process of getting involved with a new girl, she is much younger (im 26 and she is 18). She has been through a lot of the same things my ex had happen to her and I’m afraid of going through all that mess again, but everyone is different so I’m trying to give her the benefit of the doubt and just give it a shot. I was trying to take things much much slower this time, but she kind of made it a bit difficult :-)
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In the strangest of places if you look at it right
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