Unfortunately, I never put any sort of meaning to my life until I got out of high school; however, I still to this day question what purpose I even have here. I think I have found an answer, but pursuing a meaningful existence in such a way that would “help me sleep at night” or even bring me happiness is going to be difficult. I don’t want to settle for what I think I can do either. This would not create any sort of meaning if I did not push myself to do better every time.
I realized about a year ago that I had been unhappy for much too long (about 6 years). I found that the only thing that ever made me happy was helping out others in need. I mean helping people on an emotional and mental level-- to gain the confidence and solutions needed so that they themselves can find happiness and a purpose for being here.
So, I would say that first must come my own happiness, that way I can teach others to feel in such away. I want to actualize my potential by learning as much as I can (unfortunately I’ve missed out on a lot of learning), improving my way of living, and always putting myself out there for people to come to in their time of need.
I find that if I can not help other people, I am not happy and I feel useless; and therefore, do not feel as though I am experiencing an existence that has any meaning to it.
I want to be a therapist.
