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Axiom_e · 06-08-2005, 10:11 AM

I guess I am looking for more validation though I have already told this story to everyone I know. I guess I just want to tell a few more people.

Most of my friend believe I made the right decision and the one that doesn't agree still thinks it was the better of the two choices.

My last ex became a crack addict. This happened in January right under my nose. I didn't suspect anything and then one night she woke me up and told me that she had this problem. I could only stare at her for a few minutes untill the realization of what had transpried hit me. So I bundled her up and took her to the hospital to get help. I agonized over what to do. Before the relationship started the only ground rule I laid was that she couldn't smoke crack because I knew she had tried it once before. I didn't want her to lose her self in and broke the only rule I stated.

After thinking I decided that I still wanted to be with her and would help her through this. She was happy that I stayed and our relationship got better then it had been for the past few weeks. So again I put my full trust into her and after she had been out of the hospital for a few weeks I found out that she had stolen from me and started using it again.

I lost it. I sent her back to the hospital and then sent her back to her family. I believe I made the best decision for myself, but I think back ocassionally and feel like I should have done something else.

I still check in on her every few weeks. She is back in WV bouncing from friend to friend trying to find a place to crash.

I still care about her, but I didnt' have the emotion, physical, or financial resources to take care of her, I can barely take care of myself.

*sighes*

06-08-2005, 10:11 AM	#1 (permalink)
Axiom_e Tilted Location: United States, East Coast, New Jersey	Slightly Haunted by this situation I guess I am looking for more validation though I have already told this story to everyone I know. I guess I just want to tell a few more people. Most of my friend believe I made the right decision and the one that doesn't agree still thinks it was the better of the two choices. My last ex became a crack addict. This happened in January right under my nose. I didn't suspect anything and then one night she woke me up and told me that she had this problem. I could only stare at her for a few minutes untill the realization of what had transpried hit me. So I bundled her up and took her to the hospital to get help. I agonized over what to do. Before the relationship started the only ground rule I laid was that she couldn't smoke crack because I knew she had tried it once before. I didn't want her to lose her self in and broke the only rule I stated. After thinking I decided that I still wanted to be with her and would help her through this. She was happy that I stayed and our relationship got better then it had been for the past few weeks. So again I put my full trust into her and after she had been out of the hospital for a few weeks I found out that she had stolen from me and started using it again. I lost it. I sent her back to the hospital and then sent her back to her family. I believe I made the best decision for myself, but I think back ocassionally and feel like I should have done something else. I still check in on her every few weeks. She is back in WV bouncing from friend to friend trying to find a place to crash. I still care about her, but I didnt' have the emotion, physical, or financial resources to take care of her, I can barely take care of myself. sighes __________________ Life is meaningless. How awesome is that? Rock On! Now I can do whatever the hell I want and give my own life meaning to myself.