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My first thought: this is the kind of thing a man writes to someone he is head over heels in love with. This is an extraordinarily intimate letter; if you were in a serious relationship, I'd commend you for expressing so clearly why you value the other person.
However, you are not in that kind of relationship, and therefore giving the letter is inappropriate. I know so, because I've done the exact same thing in the past... I had a male best friend in high school/college whom I was in love with, and we even said "I love you" to each other often. But we were being totally inappropriate in terms of emotional boundaries, since we weren't in a romantic relationship. I gave him all kinds of letters that laid my heart open, and I should not have done that because it made me vulnerable and more in love with him than I ought to have been. We never so much as touched each other (other than hugs), but man did it break my heart when he was constantly chasing this other girl the whole time and that he didn't want to touch me the way he wanted to touch her. Obviously my feelings were not platonic, even though I said they were at the time.
Questions:
You wanna keep the friendship? Don't give her the letter. How would you feel if she had a "friendship" like yours with another guy?
You want more? Whether you like it or not, that means there's something sensual/sexual going on, which is glaringly obvious in your letter. Write a mature, controlled letter if you want her to know how you feel, but don't give her this one. It's too intense, and it's for real couples to write to each other. Save it for when you're in a real relationship and know that you're safe in giving it to someone.
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And think not you can direct the course of Love;
for Love, if it finds you worthy, directs your course.
--Khalil Gibran
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