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By all means talk to your mom, and just tell her the truth. When things like this happen, it can be very positive at least in bringing people closer together and closer to the love that is always there but often hidden below the surface. Whether or not it turns out to have spread, you'll be glad that you brought your mom to your side through it.
I was once diagnosed with malignant melanoma in the retina of my eye, the doctor said it was a 99% chance I had it based on scans. My reaction was, well when you gotta go, you gotta go. I didn't want to tell my parents for fear they would breakdown or have a heart attack or something, but I did and we all steeled ourselves for the next battery of tests, which turned out to be negative. It brought us all very close together, and we interact with each other differently now and more positively than we did before that happened.
I know that eventually it's going to happen again and for real. Maybe soon, who knows. Having a few test runs I think is a good thing because it puts you in a place where you have the right priorities. Practically every day I reflect that there will be a time, definitely too soon no matter how distant, when my daughter and I will have to say goodbye to each other forever. That knowledge has a way of always snapping you into the right frame of mind. Today she and I are going to the lake when I pick her up from school at 2, and we're going swimming together "until it gets dark" which is what she begged to do yesterday. I know I should be working but today I decided is going to be a day for her alone, and I know we're going to have a great time together.
So . . . . I would say the best way forward is to focus on what's important, which is the people you love and who love you. No matter what happens, you'll be doing the right thing.
Sending positive thoughts your way, zen,
-r
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