thanks you guys
i did actually try to talk to a therapist i was seeing at the time but she had said that if i told her she would have to tell my parents. i didn't want that to happen especially since he had said that i had forced him and they already believed him. its actually caused a huge family rift. recently i started seeing a new therapist who i actually feel comfortable talking to so hopefully that will help me deal with it better. *hugs* back to all of you
xsexydolphinx i second what mal said
and where could we buy the mace/pepper spray mix? because i would actually like to get some. i've tried using pepper spray on a mugger and he actually laughed... nyc criminals dont seem to mind the pepper spray lol