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It may help to address your frustration to your parents. Do they realize you & your siblings were starved for attention while he played out his drama? You would be surprised at how much better you may feel to hear your parents apologize.
I had some issues with my mom from when I was young. She was an old-fashioned lady who didn't believe in upsetting the family with the truth when bad things happened.
For example, I had to finally tell her that finding out that my father had a heart attack from a schoolmate could not have been better than hearing it from her. She had never realized how these things kept us from learning to deal with life. It took me long time to learn to be confident in my decision making as an adult.
Just getting it off my chest helped. I just hope she harbors no guilt from this, I know she did the best she knew how.
Realize your parents would have never have intetionally let you feel the way you did. And don't let the anger for your brother eat you up. (I have issues with my older brother too, we are barely polite to each other, but I know the tension is hard on other family members.)
Man, its amazing what baggage we carry through our lives.
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