Well I did get the chance to discuss this a bit with him and I do understand what he is going through and I know he is understanding of what I am going through. I don't really see moving out to Phx a couple months earlier as running away, I see it as taking care of myself. I really need to spend a bit of time to myself and start getting my self-confidence back. I've always believed that I can't really take care of anyone else if I can't take care of myself. Richmond has turned both of us into many of the things we have never wanted to be, unfortunately our lease is not up until July 31st and we'd like to get our $600+ security deposit back.
All in all, I am feeling much better. I don't mind the porn habits as I am very much into ertoic photography myself, but we both have different reasons for viewing and/or taking them. The thing that bothered me was that these girls, in my opinion, weren't really attractive and that sort of made me feel slightly gross. But I haven't been receptive to his advances lately because of my physical problems as well as my lack of self-confidence, motivation, and random stuff n' junk from my past. But I know it will get better. I just need to improve myself and I think being more positive will help us both.
But I appreciate all of the advice. Thank you very much!
