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as a follow up to some of that ratbastids comments,

sort of caught my eye. you don't beat alcoholism, you accept it and live with it, either by moderating or not drinking at all. the latter is easier than the former, from what i've been told. you certainly don't beat it twice - it's logically impossible.

your life is yours to live, but i would be careful about this. i don't think you fill the void you normally fill with alcohol by replacing it with something else and expect vastly different results, although it may help to break static patterns of behavior. i think you have to attack the root issues that drive you to drink. girlfriend problems are problems, but not having a job problems and having no money problems and not having enough other things in your life going on problems are problems you can solve without relying on anyone else. as someone else above said, once you get whole within yourself, you will attract others and girlfriend problems will go away if you want them to. you can do it. you just have to want to. trust me, i have been in your shoes, could very easy be in them again.

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