Sounds like you're getting some decent advice - one thing I'll add is this. I've been in some not-fun situations before, and I've perhaps crawled a bit inside the bottle at points to "cope" as well. (aside, I don't really like the term cope applied here, because you're not coping, you're struggling like hell...) One thing I found that helped me was to make a short list of resolutions / goals that I could carry with me. When I'd start to get that feeling like I was about to embark on a pattern of self-destructive behavior, I'd read the list. Didn't save me every time, but at least it forced me to think about what I was about to do - and reminded me of some other things I could be doing that would be more profitable uses of time.
Regardless, here's wishing you the best of luck...like many have said, a diversion can help and I'll strongly back ironmaiden's advice about job hunting.
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