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I'm going through exactly the same thing right now. The love of my life left me about a month ago and it intensified an already existing booze problem to the extent where my health was in very real danger.
About a week ago, I decided to do something about it. I poured all my remaining drink away, and went to see my doctor. He put me on prozac, which will hopefully start taking effect late next week.
The point is, I've been through the same as you and I'm starting to get better when I was pretty sure the only way was down. Sure I'm still lonely, I still miss my ex, and I still desperately want a drink, but it's become clear to me that it can't last forever. I've committed myself to practicing my musical instruments intensively, and I can tell you it really helps to find something like that to take your mind off things.
So my advice to you is: force yourself to get off the drink (Hard as hell, but worth it). Go see a doctor if you feel medication might help you cope with things. Find something to completely occupy your mind, be it music or exercise or work. And don't let yourself obsess over this girl. As soon as you get your new place erase your from your life as much as possible; I still see my ex laughing with her friends around the sixth form and it just dredges up all the painful feelings.
And, most importantly, remember that there are people here who know what you are going through and will be here if you need any support or advice.
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