IowaEric

Ok, time to put on your advice-giving hats ...

First, let me give you the story. I've been dating a wonderful woman for about 8 months now, one who I am completely and totally in love with. If it were not for my pitiful financial situation, I'd have already bought the ring. (It's good that I didn't, however) About a week ago, we had the tiniest spat I've ever had with a woman, and it ended up with her not talking to me for about a week. Finally, last Friday, we got to talking about whatever the hell was going on (at this point, I'm literally clueless) and she pretty much says she wants to be alone. I still cannot pinpoint exactly why, and if she has a specific reason, she's not really privvy to sharing it with me I guess. I made my last-ditch effort to try and fix things Sunday, and after a good talk, I ended up still with no reason but clarification that it was pretty much over.

Anyways, what can I say, I'm completely devestated. I've never treated anyone so well in my life and I have no idea what went wrong. My friends are all convinced she's seeing someone else, while I myself am not. (She's not really the type) They're doing what they can to be supportive, but admittedly, it's not much. So basically, I'm completely heartbroken and have been spending way too much time alone lately.

Those of you that know me from my more active days around here may recall that I have a bit of a problem in the area of drinking. (I originally posted this on a different forum I was active on, but since there's a lot of cool people around here I figured I'd cross-post it) Matter of fact, I have no license, no vehicle, and practically no cash as a result of being laid off all winter, most of these circumstances directly related to drinking. I feel I've done a great job of getting over that hump in the road, but I'm falling back into that trap in a big way. Honestly, it's the only thing that takes my mind off things, even if for only a short time. Unfortunately, I don't consider it much of a solution and I don't really want to fall back on everything I've gained by getting my drinking under control.

So, I guess my question to all of you is, can anyone point me in a good direction to try and get over this shit without falling into the bottom of a bottle every time? The fact that I can't go anywhere without begging for a ride, and don't have the money to do anything anyways, is probably seriously compounding the absolute shit state I'm mentally in right now. I'm trapped in an apartment with this woman until the end of the month (I've got another place lined up) and being here has to be the worst thing in the world for me right now. So, guys and gals, please offer me what you can for advice. I could really use it right now.