I went to my gynecologist recently and finally was able to tell her that a lot of times I have sex, I feel that burning discomfort sensation - and it's always been like that. She told me that a majority of women feel this and don't talk about it. So at least rest assured that you're not alone. I still don't know what causes it exactly, altohugh she said it could be recurrent yeast infections, and also I have a small vagina. There's a thread in Ladies Lounge about yeast infections and what some of us extra-sensitive girls do to fight these symptoms. If you've had this feeling always, who can blame you for not enjoying sex? You shouldn't have to live with it. But it may be a complicated thing to sort out...also maybe a sexology consultation might help, even though it's just talking, it could help you get your sex life and relationship into perspective, and even provide you with advice on ways of minimising your discomfort, if all else fails. Rest assured also that here on TFP though we all love sex, we all have our own problems/hangups too. As for your boyfriend, he needs to change his attitude, obviously his pressure is doing you more harm than good, and that's a vicious cycle. Good luck with this...
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Whether we write or speak or do but look
We are ever unapparent. What we are
Cannot be transfused into word or book.
Our soul from us is infinitely far.
However much we give our thoughts the will
To be our soul and gesture it abroad,
Our hearts are incommunicable still.
In what we show ourselves we are ignored.
The abyss from soul to soul cannot be bridged
By any skill of thought or trick of seeming.
Unto our very selves we are abridged
When we would utter to our thought our being.
We are our dreams of ourselves, souls by gleams,
And each to each other dreams of others' dreams.
Fernando Pessoa, 1918
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