Well, today is 3 weeks to the day. 2 weeks and 6 days and 12 hours longer then most people though I would make it. Nice little bench mark, I think. It is amazing some of the changes I'm noticing already. At PT the other night, we did a 2 or 2 and a half mile run. I could breath through the whole. I rean better then I have in YEARS. It felt damn good. Never been big on the work out thing, but I am thinking that maybe it is time to start hitting the gym a bit more. Something to take up some time. I have to say though, that why I physicaly feel better, mentaly I'm a freaking wreck. That will get better with time though, I am sure. God I just hope it's soon. Just let me say to all of you, thanks for the support. Quite an out pouring here in pretty short time. I can use all the support I can get right now, so thanks.
kid astronaut, Thanks for the kind words. Every bit helps.
Amnesia620, I know that you understand very well how things are. It's one of the reasons I've had so much respect for you. You can be a tough little bitch when you want to be.
scarletleo, I know what you mean. We have this huge stair way at work, and I am always winded by the time I get to the top. I am already starting to feel better though. Just remember, you already proved you can quit once. No reason you can't do it again. Good luck to you.
Starlight4, How do I feel about them? Well, honestly, some of the things I'm seeing there I just can't stand. Guess you don't realise how much baggage you have until you try to move, huh? Well, it won't be the first time I've had to take a good hard look at myself and do a little cleaning. I just wish I could have found a way that didn't involve possibly pushing a few people away from me. Hopefully they will be more forgiveing of me then I am of myself.
jhkayakr, cold turkey is the only way to go, in my eyes. It's like taking off a band aid, youknow it's gonna hurt, so just rip the fucker off and be done with it instead of trying to ease it off and feel every little hair get ripped out one by one.
iccky, congrats on kicking it. And thanks for the pointers. Anything to try and keep what little sanity I have left.
squirrelyburt, I've found my big life saver is trident gum. I should have bought stock in that stuff, cause I'm pretty sure I've bumped it up a couple points these past 3 weeks.
Anyway, almost time to hit the sack. One more day down. Thanks for the support folks. It does help.