Here I am to throw in my two cents on you kicking the habit. First of all, WOOHOO! I'm so proud of you, as this is quite a project. I've done it once, for the health of my li'l one. It wasn't just that smoking everyday was a struggle; different parts of each day I also struggled with. After meals, first thing in the morning, right before going to bed, I would smoke a cigarette, even reaching for them (where I had kept them in my truck) while driving. Quitting was even harder when I had to endure other people smoking, but each day that I avoided them, I felt stronger, like I was conquering this habit of shit.
Outside of the bullshit that goes along with being pregnant, I felt better. I was in 90% humidity, couldn't take a walk without heaving, out of breath, after only two blocks. My mind and personal issues didn't come into play until after I went back to smoking, I felt weak, and still do, for giving in and making excuses; to this day, the reality of my weakness eats at me.
I've already decided that I will be quitting, for good I hope, by the end of this year. I'm doing this for myself and my little one this time. I'm ready to be healthier and stronger; hopefully, it will help keep her away from smoking when she gets older. Anyhow good luck and keep it up!!
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