Kicking the habit
Well, I'm not to sure where this should go, so I'll post here. If the moderators feel the need to move it, they can move it..
Anyway, as of the time of this posting, I am 19 days without a smoke. And I can say this. It fucking sucks. This is by far one of the harder bone headed ideas I've come up with. I've been smoking 18 years now, and to be honest, I have no real clear memories of a time I didn't smoke. This has been a learning experince all around though. I am finding out how far my will power can take me. I am also finding out just how fuckedin the head I am. I've always been a moody mother fucker. I am now, even more so. I've been thinking about it, and realised that all the things I'm seeing about the way I act when I'm nic fitting can't just be blamed on quiting. Everything was there already, it's just being let out of the box now. It's been a long tiem sense I've really looked at the things in my head to try and fix them, and now I am finding all kinds of petty emotions and thoughts. Many of them I can trace to the roots, now that I can look at them, and from there, remove them, or at least try to. I guess what I'm wondering, is if any of you people have tried to kick the habit (this or any other one), and if so, did you find the same sort of thing happened to you. Well, wish me luck. I'm just taking it one day at a time. Here's hoping willpower is stronger then adiction.
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