I think there's alot to be said about the fact that I don't have many female friends. Those I have, I have known for many years, so I am comfortable in their presence. Perhaps I need to do something about that.
God almighty, I'm nearly 40 and attractive women still make me feel uncomfortable. Does that mean I feel younger than I actually am or is it just that attractive women know how they affect me and do just that because they can?
I'm still slightly confused but I do know one thing. Betty isn't worth throwing it all away for, that's for certain. But we do have one thing in common. We both hate working at this place so I made a deal with her that we would be each others 'moaning buddies'. That way I still get to talk to her, but now it's about how crap work is and if we want to talk about other stuff that's fine.
ratbastid - I think you're right about her perception of the whole thing. She knows she has a power of sorts over me. But now I know that, I'm cool with it.
jwoody - my desk is full of pics of my boys. And I do talk about them and Mrs. Boss all the time. They are my life so they are what I talk about most, with Betty as well as everyone else.
sweatpea - my comment about being a man in a position of power was a bit tongue-in-cheek. I have been fortunate to have been a manager in various places for most of my career. There's no way I would abuse that position. I'm not that kind of person.
As the title says, I haven't felt this way before, so I needed someone to talk it through with me. Talking to you guys has been the best because you're all totally objective enough to say what you think. If I had spoken to some of my work colleagues, I'm sure a few would have told me to go for it.
Thanks once again for being good listeners and putting my mind at ease. I think I knew all along what I had to do - nothing! - but I needed someone to steer me in the right direction.
Thanks fellow tfp'ers. Next time you're in Sunny Liverpool, drop me a line and we can have a cuppa in my office and I'll show you some pictures of my boys.....and the new picture of Mrs. Fatboss that I'm putting up next week.
Dave.