You are right to be confused, frustrated, distraught, angry and every other emotion that you are feeling.
Nothing about it is fair, and it is obviously all the more difficult because you, and your family, had really no time to prepare.
When I lost my dad a few years ago, I felt many of the above emotions - you would hardly be human of you did not - and after a while I questioned my on views around death and the afterlife.
I realised that I did actually believe that there is 'something' after death, I dont know if you would call it life. A nephew and a niece (both too small to understand death per se) talked about 'seeing and talking to Grandad' in their bedroom for quite a while afterwards and we took it to mean that he was doing whatever he could to look after us all. I thelped us to believe it, but it didnt, and doesnt, seem farfetched to us.
You have lost her, but that doesnt mean she has gone, or that you wont see her again - just that she has moved on.
I believe that we will all catch up with my Dad, when the time is right.
__________________
Food, fun and frolicking - that's all I need
|