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Lost my mother-in-law today
My MIL died of pancreatic cancer today. She was diagnosed 3 weeks ago, and had surgery 1 week ago. She never woke up. Apparently she had a stroke a couple of days ago. My wife and her sibs were with her, across the country from me and my daughter. My emotions are sliding all over the place. It starts with crying, as she has been my mom, too, for the last 10 years. Then there's this feeling of relief, in that she was taken while unconscious, thereby saving herself weeks or months of pain. Next, the anger sets in. It's hard to get past the part where she basically couldn't survive the surgery or recovery. It's so unexpected. I feel like not enough was done for her. She was everything a mother could want to be, and deserved to see and hear her kids at the end. Is that stupid and selfish?
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