WE never know how high we are
Till we are called to rise;
And then, if we are true to plan,
Our statures touch the skies.
The heroism we recite
Would be a daily thing,
Did not ourselves the cubits warp
For fear to be a king.
Emily Dickinson
you're not the first person to go through this! even if you have to get a "crappy" job for a month in Ottawa, who knows what it could lead to! NO ONE knows what's gonna happen right after they graduate unless they enlist in the army. have fun with the change, know that it's gonna be ok, and that if, for some reason, your car blows up and your dog dies and you're out of a job, your parents and family still love you and will support you while you get things straight! good luck!
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Sage knows our mythic history, King Arthur's and Sir Caradoc's
She answers hard acrostics, has a pretty taste for paradox
She quotes in elegiacs all the crimes of Heliogabalus
In conics she can floor peculiarities parabolous
-C'hi