If this isn't the right forum feel free to move it, wasn't sure where else to put this.
I was watering plants outside, came back in, and mom got a call from my aunt telling us that my gma passed away last night, so my mom's gotta fly up there this weekend for the funeral/wake.
I feel a little numb more than sad... it's weird, they're ALL gone now, as far as my dad's side goes. I'm glad though to tell you the truth, she was awfully sick, so they're all together now wherever they are.
A timeline:
2002 - My Uncle died.
2003 - My dad died.
2004 - My grandpa died.
+2005 - My grandma died last night.
It makes me feel almost unavailable emotionally with all of these deaths. Does that sound terrible? It's just how I feel. I haven't spilled one tear. I'm sad, don't get me wrong, it's not that I don't care... I just am not able to show it. *sigh*
My poor mom, she's been crying her eyes out all day. I'm there for her for hugs and everything. I booked her flight up to Massachusetts and got her a place to stay too. I'd go this weekend, but I have school that's just starting, my cat is here, plus she asked me to stay here anyway.
I feel bad that I'm not crying. Is it okay not to cry? Feels like I should though.
