just broke up with my girlfriend this week. the break-up was kind of a fight but at the end i'm just like "well, it's over.." and we both walked away(this was at school)...so the next day i talked to her about still being friends because we weren't on totally bad terms with each other, just when we broke up i was angry about previous complications. And the reason we broke up was because currently she was ALWAYS busy, i mean we never hung out anymore or even talked much she just didn't have the time. So it was pretty hard on me, i mean i was understanding for a while but then i just started getting angry for her not calling me and stuff (i didnt wanna call her if she was in the middle of something). So when it ended (it seemed pretty mutual), soon after i felt VERY refreshed, i guess, and just excited for the future for some reason, but those feelings lasted for a day.
so when i talked to her the next day about still being friends, (during this feeling of 'happiness') i told her that
"I really didn't have feelings for her any longer", and
"I'm sure we can both agree that we're not meant for each other" . And i really meant that when i said it! and her reply was, "ya i guess so..." (it was over an instant messenger btw)
However, now, i totally regret saying that! i keep thinking, like in the future, since we may remain friends, and since she was only really busy at this time in her life, she'd have time for me sometime. And also, she had told me SO many times how much she "loved me so incredibly much", and how much of a deep feeling she had about me.... and i was totally developing the same feelings towards her near the end when she started getting really busy and i really have those feelings about her now... infact i feel stronger about the two of us than i ever did before now that we've broken up... but i don't feel it can resume because her life is full of too many things i won't bother mentioning... And of course what i said the day after we broke up. i can't believe i said that. and i can't just tell her i 'take back what i said', they were pretty strong words, you know?
So this is just a confusing, weird, emotional situation for me.. i wonder what she's thinking, she looked kinda sad at school to be honest but it could have been about other things. but she seemed really awkward towards me though, during class she didn't look my direction once. we never made eye contact (and i know her well, thats how she gets when she likes a guy a lot -- thats how she was to me before we started dating)
i really do love her now more than ever, i could go on an on about her but i won't. i think if she may feel the same way tho but i have no way of knowing
Makes me wonder if its possible to end such a deep relationship because one partner is too busy...
i just felt like talking about this, and i would appreciate some feedback. and i love how open everyone is on this forum