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i've always wanted kids, but a few years ago discovered i may have trouble getting pregnant. now, i'm not so sure. it took a long time to come to terms with the idea that i won't have children (hell, i still struggle with it some days). i would definitely need help from a dr--which means a lot of expense. plus, i am at an increased risk for miscarriage and i'm not sure how well i'd handle something like that. but mostly, i just don't think i could emotionally handle getting my hopes up trying to get pregnant and not succeeding (or worse, miscarrying).
adoption is an option, but i've hit a point in my life where i just don't have much urge to get married (and when it hits it tends to be very short-lived). i don't think it would be fair to a child to not provide two parents.
the bf wants kids but he says he wants me more...i feel a little guilty about that but he's a big boy and can make that sort of decision for himself. besides, at the moment finances aren't where i'd want them to be for kids anyway.
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