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i can remember having two obes, both when i was a kid. i also had another...experience... that was different but along the same lines i guess.
the first was when i was really little, maybe 5 years old? so hard to describe this but as i remember it, i walked into a bedroom and saw a little girl sleeping on a bed with her back to me, facing the wall. i remember thinking she had beautiful hair and not knowing who she was. next thing i know, i'm waking up and rolling over, looking at the doorway. (so initially, i was standing in the door and looking at some little girl. then i was the little girl (me) and looking at the doorway.) i can't describe the sensation very well. it was less about feeling i was outside my body, more that i felt i wasn't the person the body belonged to, i was just watching her.
second time was similar but i was older, around 12 or 13. this time, i was sitting on my bed crying (no need for details on why, but i was very emotional and upset). i don't remember "leaving" my body or anything like that, but i was standing in my closet and looking at a girl crying on the bed (i didn't identify with the girl as being me, or the room as belonging to me). and i thought, why is she crying? doesn't she know that everything will be ok?. next thing i know, i'm me again, sitting on my bed, no longer crying and staring at my closet doorway.
my other weird experience was several years later when i was 17. my favorite brother was moving to where my other brother lived. the one brother had come back to town to help my fav brother pack up and move. i was really upset about him leaving because we were really close and it meant i prolly wouldn't see him except maybe on holidays. they left kinda late and had a 24 hour drive ahead of them. that night, i had a dream that they'd been in a car accident. i wasn't with them, but i could see and hear it all happening, like watching a movie. i saw the car totalled and both of them standing outside it by the guard rail, unhurt and laughing about it. i could see inside the car and saw my brother's television with the screen smashed in. when i woke up the next morning, my bf came over and i told him about it. at the time, my parents were out of town and a family friend was staying with me. she came in a few minutes later and told me that the night before my brothers were in a car accident but neither of them were hurt. they'd lost control of their car and hit a guard rail.
the dream may have been a premonition...i was sleeping so i can't match up the time of their crash to the time of my dream. but if it were a premonition, it stands to reason i would have dreamed about them as they were having the accident and not them standing around in the aftermath of it. though i could have had my dream after their accident but before i had heard about it. but the feeling i had at the time, and still do, is that i was there watching them just after they had the accident. i recall feeling grateful in my dream that they were both ok and being a little irritated with them that they thought it was funny when they could have been killed. later, when i spoke to my brother he told me what had happened. before i told him about my dream, he said they started laughing when they got out of the car. i asked him what happened to his tv and he said the screen was busted in the accident.
for several weeks after that dream, i had horrible nightmares about terrible things happening to my loved ones (none of which came true). and when they finally stopped, i quit remembering dreaming all together--i knew i dreamed cause everyone does, but it felt like i didn't and remembered nothing. it was prolly 5 years or so before i started having dreams i could remember again.
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