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What would happen if all of us gathered in a room? hehe. But yes, I've got it too. And it basically ruined my life. Flunked/dropped out of college last year because it was all too much, and now I'm unemployed because I'm too chicken shit to find a real job. (My last job I grit my teeth through, but now I have to get a "big girl" job.)
I have that weird speech thing too, where I know what I want to say, but my mouth does a "porky pig" and because of that I stay away from the phone because then I might just come off as a blubbering idiot. The only places I feel okay going are stores, and even in there I think that every guy in the place thinks I'm ugly and all of that.
One of my sort of friends invited me to go to the bar with her boyfriend and her this Friday and I couldn't say no because then I would just sound boring and mean to turn down an invitation when I haven't seen her for 2 months.
What's weird is I have an outgoing comedic personality, but I just don't feel comfortable sharing that for some reason. I think evil High School kids back in the day killed the laughter.
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