After enjoying a good week of thinking I am over her (mostly due to the words you people have spoken in here, it gave me lots of support to know I hadn't done anything wrong) we talked last night. She has been out of town seeing her son, she called me on her way back.
She told me she missed me and she didn't want to hate me (our last conversation was very heated). I cried like a little baby for most of the phone call. I told her it hurt me so much to know she was with another man. She told me she wasn't with another man (if you kiss a guy, doesn't that mean you're "with him"?). She said she loved me. I told her that part of the pain I was experiencing was because so much of my life revolved around her, we weren't just boyfriend/girlfriend, we were buddies. She said that one of the reasons our relationship wasn't working out was because I centered my life around hers. I told her I realized that, and that's why we both were spending less time with each other towards the end of our relationship.
She said she misses me and wants to see me this weekend. I don't know what to think at this point. I think it is pretty evident she isn't the type of girl I should be around but at the same time I miss her dearly and the only thing that gets rid of the pain is to see her or hug her. I haven't eaten in 24 hours and I'm starting to think that I'll never get over her.
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