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Old 05-12-2003, 09:59 PM   #1 (permalink)
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I don't want to be with her, but I still become jealous!

I recently broke up with a great girlfriend for around 2.5 years and it's been pretty rough. You see, I was her first real boyfriend and while she was quite natural with everything, the breakup process was pretty bad because she just kind of drifted away rather than laying everything on the table. While she did initiate the recent breakup, semi against my likings, I have been "through" with her many in the past and am not really interested in her any more. Today, we still talk a lot as we became extremely good friends throughout our relationship, and many of our friends still think we're still together (minus the intimacy) from the way we are with eachother. She calls me when she's bored, and I think about her a few times a day.
So why do I get extremely jealous when I find out that shes been messing around with another guy (after the initial anger from finding out through friends, not from her...)? Like I said, I'm really not trying to get back together with her, but do miss her sometimes, not being with her but just that old, extremely long-gone feeling, however I still get jealous. I'm guessing it's because I still have attachments deep down, but how am I to deal with these? The only thing I can think of is time apart which is a hard thought but I actually already initiated this a few weeks back. Any advice? I'm not looking to blow her off, and we've already talked about our relationship hundreds of times. We both know whats up and are very much so on the same level, however I still get jealous. I know that she would too, but just not as much. It's rough
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