What i'm afraid of is falling victim to an out of touch, disney-esque, idealized image that our society has of love. Right now for me that means completely abandoning my society's oft unquestioned concept of what it means to be in a successful romantic relationship.[QUOTE]
You love her. Truly. Why then would you want to hold anything back? Monogomy is giving all you have to that one person.
So, you are afraid of falling victem to disnyification. I don't beleive it. If you are open, honest, and aware of that person, and you trust them, I honestly see no reason for monogomy to not be involved. Monogomy does not trap you - but you sound very afraid of giving all you got and then having something other than the freedom you have. try if you can to wrap your mind around the concept that anything worth having is worth working hard for.
Don't abandon society completely - work within it while retaining your individual strength. It is a skill few have. (I struggle with it myself)
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And so its over
Your fantasy life is finally at an end
And the world above is still a brutal place
And the story will start again
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