Well, for one, it's being taken for granted.
You give up everything for her, and she only gives back a lil. You want this to happen, you do that for her but you don't get it back. Why is it so unfair at times. Then you realise that no, it's not that way, she's not taking you for granted, she's doing some things for you too that you don't realise, perhaps she wants something back too that you're not giving to her.
I've been with someone who has totally taken me for granted. She never told me she loved me unless it came from me first. It's always me : " I love you ", and her : " I love you too ". She would never say it first, sometimes it feels like it's all one way. You know? Seems like a really small matter, maybe I'm too sensitive.
Then there's this other issue that she wouldn't give things up for me. I'd go all the way from one point of the city to the other just to see her, paying a whole lot on transportation fees, giving a good explanation why I'm late and only have 15 minutes together. Then she goes all pissy saying that I should've been there earlier, she didn't even appreciate me being there, saying she'd rather have me not having to visit her. wtf? "Why waste your time" she says.
Seems like really really really really really really small issues, I know, maybe I'm too sensitive, but then you start to think that she cannot even make these small sacrifices, then you start to doubt, and then you feel useless and taken for granted.
Right. Anyways, a year and a half after break-up I realise that it wasn't one way. And I was wrong to end things over small issues without discussion.
Lesson : It's a commitment, if you should fall into it again, try not to fall out of it. A simple discussion could've helped.
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