MEAD

Hey there, I got a problem I think I'm depressed. I just came off a really good senior year in highschool, finally things were going my way. I had great friends and got into a relationship with a girl I really love. Then at the end of the summer I got sick with Mono and then had leave it all to go to college, well me and my girl are still working this out long distance. It just gradually became harder and harder to be here(at school), I go through phases of feeling very anxious, feeling a sense of doom, fearing things for no reason. And then I get scared of falling back into that feeling again which makes me just dwell on it more than I should. Strangest part is that at times I've also been extremely happy too, my moods seem to be all over the place with no discretion at all. Im going to have a discussion about this all with my parents when I get home in a few days, it might be genetic, my sister is on anti-depressents. I just want to feel safe, like myself again.